God is omniscient. He knows your struggles. He knows your pain. He knows. He understands. Believe in Him and persevere. He will hold your hand through the hottest fire. He will be there in your victory. He will allow you to be tested beyond your wildest imagination and just when you think you're drowning in the deepest darkest pit of despair anyone has ever been in, He will whisper to you....because he loves you. He wants you to throw down your life and choose Him. He is there. He knows your struggles. He knows your pain. He knows. He understands. He will be waiting for you at the end of the journey. Just believe that He is your Savior and He will save you. You will be persecuted for that belief but you will be FREE.
(Understand that everyone's pit of despair is different.)